When He Eats Your Croissant

“Forgiving is giving up any hope for a better past.” — Anne Lamott

2018. I am in the bright, cold, long, court hallway sitting on a hard bench outside the restraining order courtroom when I get the text that it wasn’t him who put a book on my car windshield in the middle of the night with no note; on my car parked too close to my new baby’s bedroom. Too close to our bedroom. To our home. How did he know where I lived now? Didn’t I do everything I could, including losing all my time and money and projects and friends and love of everything that was dear to me, to get away from him…